My day started out with bunches of kisses and love while I was sleeping. No, I'm not talking about Shiner this time..Kyle was telling me good bye. I wish I would've woke up more to give him a real hug. He's left for a week for training. Bummer. I don't know why it tears me up so much about him being gone for 6 days. We used to live 250 miles away for goodness sake! I finally get up and get to moving and make my world famous 'nanner puddin' and get dressed to meet my mom and sister. We went to get our nails done and then brought my youngest nephew with us to do a little shopping. I love spending time with them..plus my toes are ADORABLE! I haven't gotten them done since the wedding. What is happening to me? I used to get them done all the time. :) I guess thatll have to change! We came back home around 5 and then I decided to come home. They were eating crab legs for dinner. I can't eat crab. I shouldn't say I "can't" because I physically can..I just DONT WANNA! So I headed home and made some nachos and fell asleep for 3 hours or so. I felt so bad I was missing all of Kyle's calls. I finanlly woke up and talked to him for a few minutes and then had an ice cream cone...ok 2 ice cream cones and here I am.
The point of that detailed paragraph of what I did today was to show, I did do stuff and I had fun...but I still was very quiet and disconnected all day. I couldn't figure it out. I blamed it on Kyle being away, until I was mean to him on the phone. In fact he is the one who made me step back and think. It all hit me when I asked if he had called his grandma for Mother's Day.
This is the first year I've been without my Grandma Dot on Mother's Day.
We went to visit in May of 2009 to have a reception so she could be a part of our wedding. It was probably the best thing I have ever done in my life. I was going to post a picture of her with us then..but thats not how want to remember her. She was a very open and honest loud mouth English/French and Italian by marriage lady. Beautiful by nature and elegant by birth. She was an amazing woman who did amazing things. I really hope theres a lot of her in me.
On this Mother's Day I also am thinking of my other grandma, Grandma Dodie. She was a short little spit fire with so much love it could fill a room. She had a voice like an angel and dance moves that were only fit for Fred Astaire. My sister has a lot of her charactersitcs, my moms says.
Both of which, we lost to cancer.
Today I just want to sit back and enjoy everything they have taught me and embrace every second that we had with them. Then that brings me to embracing every second we have with all of our loved ones.
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