Well holy moly! I keep meaning to get back on here and post a picture of my new hair...except I keep forgetting. Blah! I'd take a picture right now but..I really don't want to give anyone nightmares. :)

Today is kind of a bitter sweet day for me. Two years ago, my Poppies past away. I really like to think that he passed away on Memorial Day for so many reasons. My father was(is) mostly absent in my life. He only comes up and decides to be a part of it when he wants to. My Poppies has been there for me through everything. He'd give me advice even if I didn't want it but most of all, he just wanted me to be happy. He taught me so much about life and love and everything in between. It was an honor to be called his granddaughter. Being his youngest granddaughter, we had the most special relationship imaginable. I took in every word and jumped on every chance to hang out with him. I'm so glad I did. He and I could just look at each other and know what we were thinking. I really think theres a few people in this world that you will every feel that way with. Usually its your soul mate, sometimes a parent or a friend. I am lucky to have all of that. I was looking for the most recent picture I have of him that makes me smile and this would definitely be it.

It would've been very hard for me to have married my husband without my Poppies approval. Kyle proposed to me 3 months after my Poppies had passed away. I felt ridiculous when I cried on the way home because I wish I could've called him to tell him. At our wedding, I held it in until we got to in the limo. I started crying ridiculously because I missed him and my Grandma Dot. The way my husband consoled me is something I'll never forget.

I take peace in knowing my Poppies has saved me a pretty awesome fishing spot in heaven.

Thar she goes!

So my husband has been out of town since Sunday....its only Tuesday (SHEEESH! It feels way longer than that)...and I'm trying to take that time and do a little something for myself. I went and got my nails done on mother's day with my mom and sister and tomorrow I am going to go whack my hair off. I used to be so down with anything that involves my hair, but now that I've let it grow to the middle of my back, I feel like I should keep it that way. Then I realize that doesn't make any sense in this Texas heat.

This is what I'm thinking...The Lauren Conrad medium bob.

I'm in love with it. I had this style before, but it was more of a blunt cut and was more layered. Im pretty excited for my appointment tomorrow.

Here's my before...

Lets hope it goes well!!

Mother's Day

Sometimes I wish I wasn't so passive aggressive with my own emotions. Passive agressivenes is one of my biggest pet peeves, yet I find I do the exact same thing with myself. Crazy.  Today I've been really short with everyone. I don't think anyone has taken offense..and hopefully they haven't, I really don't mean it.

My day started out with bunches of kisses and love while I was sleeping. No, I'm not talking about Shiner this time..Kyle was telling me good bye. I wish I would've woke up more to give him a real hug. He's left for a week for training. Bummer. I don't know why it tears me up so much about him being gone for 6 days. We used to live 250 miles away for goodness sake! I finally get up and get to moving and make my world famous 'nanner puddin' and get dressed to meet my mom and sister. We went to get our nails done and then brought my youngest nephew with us to do a little shopping. I love spending time with them..plus my toes are ADORABLE! I haven't gotten them done since the wedding. What is happening to me? I used to get them done all the time. :) I guess thatll have to change! We came back home around 5 and then I decided to come home. They were eating crab legs for dinner. I can't eat crab. I shouldn't say I "can't" because I physically can..I just DONT WANNA! So I headed home and made some nachos and fell asleep for 3 hours or so. I felt so bad I was missing all of Kyle's calls. I finanlly woke up and talked to him for a few minutes and then had an ice cream cone...ok 2 ice cream cones and here I am.

The point of that detailed paragraph of what I did today was to show, I did do stuff and I had fun...but I still was very quiet and disconnected all day. I couldn't figure it out. I blamed it on Kyle being away, until I was mean to him on the phone. In fact he is the one who made me step back and think. It all hit me when I asked if he had called his grandma for Mother's Day.

This is the first year I've been without my Grandma Dot on Mother's Day.

 We went to visit in May of 2009 to have a reception so she could be a part of our wedding. It was probably the best thing I have ever done in my life. I was going to post a picture of her with us then..but thats not how want to remember her. She was a very open and honest loud mouth English/French and Italian by marriage lady. Beautiful by nature and elegant by birth. She was an amazing woman who did amazing things. I really hope theres a lot of her in me.

On this Mother's Day I also am thinking of my other grandma, Grandma Dodie. She was a short little spit fire with so much love it could fill a room. She had a voice like an angel and dance moves that were only fit for Fred Astaire. My sister has a lot of her charactersitcs, my moms says.

Both of which, we lost to cancer.

Today I just want to sit back and enjoy everything they have taught me and embrace every second that we had with them. Then that brings me to embracing every second we have with all of our loved ones.

Run, Shannon, Run.

I know its been a little longer than a day for me to come back with something useful and insightful. But, I promise this is worth it!

wait for it..wait for it..


I started to run again!

Im on The Couch-to-5K plan. http://www.coolrunning.com/engine/2/2_3/181.shtml I am so excited to start this! I have no more excuses. And for once..Im excited about working out!

Before I met my husband, I was into working out...a lot. I'd run in the morning, go to the gym, and run at night. AND THEN I met my soon-to-be husband. Since he was living 4 hours away, we were always maxamizing our time together so we would eat out and go get drinks, etc. That meant the pounds and pounds and pounds added on. Okay not that extreme but Im back to where I started before I started working out. My husband has now been running 5 miles, 3 times a week and has dropped 30 pounds almost. HOLY MOLY! If you only knew how thin my husband is already...its insane. So now Im playing catch up.


My goal it have my last years swim suit fit loose on me..if it fits loose...I've done my duty! Plus, I want to finish this program...if I can do that too, I will be ECSTATIC!!