Friday, April 24, 2009

Bridesmaids dresses are in

-Woohoo!
The Bridesmaids dresses are in....3 weeks early! I love it when that happens.

-I've been working on doing Pilates lately. I never understood the big excitement over it..until now. I love it! It seriously works me out and I definitely feel it but without getting frustrated.

-I can't wait for 2 more weeks. I have a LOT to get done for school but besides that, I will then be free to do whatever. Work out everyday. Tan everyday. ACTUALLY have a life again. Life will be great.

-I'm trying to figure out what to do with our invitations. Where to print them, etc.



Hows that for some random thoughts.


I was just talking to Kyle about WHERE HAS THIS TIME GONE!?!? Here we are ..2 months..2 weeks...3 days (almost 2 days) until D-DAY. Wow. I don't know where it went. Kyle is actually getting excited. He's just scared no one is going to show. Isnt that supposed to be my worry?

Tuesday, April 14, 2009

Pretty tough. Not really WR

I got a call last Wednesday that my grandma, who has been suffering with lung cancer, was admitted into the hospital. Not the best day ever. I freaked out a little, seeing as she is in San Francisco and I'm no where near here. I might as well be in Germany, I feel so far. At first no one really told me anything and then the next thing I heard is its just a 'kidney infection.' Okay, we can deal with that. She's in her late 70's and the put her on chemo but it was making her pretty weak, as it normally does, but they decided to switch her to a new 'formula'. Whatever that means. They test her (apparently they test your genes to see if you are able to take it) and she is approved. 3 weeks later shes in a freaking hospital bed? Wow. Anyway, then not-so-Good Friday I get a call from my dad and he tells me they are putting her on hospice. WTF. What?! What...are you kidding me? I just lost my Grandpa (Poppies) on my mom's side in May of last year, I am not ready to lose 2 in one year. I am absolutely not prepared. But can you really prepare for something like this? I can finish up my semester within a week and a half, but what if thats not long enough. I am going to fly out there in the next few weeks. I have to. There's so many things I want to ask her that I feel like I haven't been able to in the last 23 years. What should I name my children? Where is you favorite spot in the world? Whats your favorite recipe? and most of all, what is the one thing you're most proud of? I feel like making a questionaire, but I don't want to overwhelm her. I still remember, I promised to make my Poppies a strawberry creme pie the day he passed away. I just didn't. When I went to see him, he wasn't able to eat anything, but I still felt a little guilty. I don't want to feel that again.

Kyle has seen me cry a million time, but I'm so glad he's not home right now.

So all in all, not a great week or so. She's home and on pain meds, but ...I dont know.

To add onto my stress...I have my brother's girlfriend.

Let me lay the ground work for this story.
My brother met her around the same time Kyle and I started dating. They finally moved rather close August of last year. Shortly after that, they invited my mom to live with them, but she'd have to pay 1/3 of the bills. (Theres 4 people living there. Mom, brother, brothers girlfriend, and HER 19 YEAR OLD DAUGHTER)..ugh, thatll be saved for another blog. Anyway, the whole 1/3 of the bills pisses me off, but wahtever. His girlfriend is pushing 40 and acts ike a 12 year old. She has decided to declare war on us (being my mom, myself, and my sister) because we don't particularly care for her. I'm far from ugly to her, but I'm also not friendly. Read above, I dont have time to add people in my life that I know will only stab me in the back. When I went to visit my grandma for Thanksgiving she decided to blast my mom on her myspace status. WTF man, are we 16? I asked who that was about (being a little shit, because I knew perfectly well who it was about). I put something on mine in regards to my dad who is up there and she took it upon herself to think it was about her. Come the F on, lady. She proceeded to send me a hate filled comment about how I need to mind my own business, etc. Really pissed me off and burned her in my book seeing as I was dealing with my ailing grandma. We had a pretty good relationship prior, so why she went and did that was beyond me. That was Novemeber, its April, and I have yet to recieve an apology more than " I am sorry you took that the wrong way..."..ugh. Did I mention she hasn't had a job for the last year and has been riding unemployment this whole time? Well, until last week when it ran out SUCKER.

Shes pretty pissed off at my mom because she didn't pay her 1/3 of the rent (which ends up more because my mom buys food anyway)...she had to buy a car instead since she recently got into a car accident. My mom took her to get a pizza last night for everyone and my mom asked how a certain neighbor was and then the GF saw my mom got new floormats and she commented on them, whatever, it was conversation. My mom was just ruffling her feathers and told he that she thinking about quitting her job so she can look for one over here (they live in Spring and she works in Crosby. Ouch). That pissed her off. She goes and tells my brother, they come inside and yell at my mom like shes a child about how she needs to keep her own. ARE YOU KIDDING ME? What about your almost 20 year old daughter in there who lives like a homeless person and doesn't pay for SHIT!? Whatever. My poor mom. And then she brought up Easter. How she thought I was mad at them. Im so proud of my mom. She told them "Jason, shes not mad at you. You're her brother and she loves you. She's still very hurt about that BULLSHIT that was done on myspace while she was in California with her dying grandma (nods at GF) And she still hasn't recieved an apology." AMEN, MoM! you're awesome.

So here we stand..with this waste of space.

We're having 3 round tables as our "head tables". They were designated to have Kyle and I with our parents at one. Another be Bridesmaids and dates. And the other Groomsmen and dates. I refuse to have her sitting at that table. Is that wrong of me to not let her sit at that table? Honestly I dont think I care if its rude or not. I'll pull my rank. Its my wedding, and she won't be sitting there. She's lucky she's even coming.

Sunday, April 5, 2009

Holy Moly.

How did I pass my 100 day mark? We're at 97 days, officially, today.
There is so much to get done. It hasn't hit met until today, how much needs to be accomplished. Not to mention things I've got to do everyday..homework, dishes, laundry, etc. Anyway, I guess crunch time really hit me. I guess that bowl of frozen yogurt wont help, huh? Besides that work has been..work. School has been tearing me up. Why did I think it was a great idea to take a full-load this semester? Wow. Pretty tough with everything else going on. The in-laws are AWESOME to say the least. They're going to pay for our honeymoon. Thats great. I really don't think we could afforded one without them. Yay, for planning and paying for a wedding in a recession. Great time to fall in love, Kyle. :) I kid, I kid. Bridesmaids dresses should be coming in the middle of May. Thats prefect since the end of May we are having my Bridal Shower. I'm pretty excited to see how big my sisters belly gets by the time the wedding rolls around. I told her to order a size bigger!!! We signed up for that Texas Twogether program for May 30th. Im pretty excited, but Im not sure if Kyle is. Hes all about premarital counseling...except for the part of him having to go. I think we're starting to print invites next week. Wow. Seriously..where did all this time go?!?

Hows that for a quick update. :)